Ladies, it's time for some #realtalk.
Sometimes my immediate response to hurt, disappointment, exhaustion, worry or frustration is to retract in to my own space, and my own thoughts. But the truth is, in the back of my mind, I know that all I have to do is open my heart to Jesus, and let His presence rush in. So why, when I know that I would find an immediate, tangible, unexplainable peace, do I not open my heart to God's presence? Tonight, I felt God drop the 'why' into my heart.
You see, there are forces in this world that are evil, forces that are not intended for good - you don't have to be a christian to realise that some things just aren't right. They don't feel right. There's no peace. As a believer in Christ, I know that the devil doesn't want me turning to God - to my only source of real hope, life, freedom, healing, and peace. He doesn't want me to experience an incredible life. He doesn't want me to experience wholeness. He doesn't want me to be a force for good. In fact, he wants the complete opposite - for me to suffer through struggle after struggle after struggle for my entire life. So of course he's going to distract me from experiencing all the good that God has for me.
But I'm not afraid, because I know a God who loves me just as I am, a God who will use me just because I'm me. I don't have to be anyone special. I don't have to be qualified. I don't need to come to Him whole and complete. I can come empty handed and with a vacant heart, but longing after Him. It's a story of grace. It's scandalous. It's the greatest mystery the world has ever known.
And my heart knows that my life is void without Him, it's empty without Him. My heart knows that I need Him more and more and more each day. My heart knows that He is my everything.
I love these words from the song When the Fight Calls by Hillsong Young & Free.
I won't let the storm weather my heart, won't let the darkness beat me down. Sing in the night my hope alive in you. I'll walk through the fire and not be burned, pray in the fight and watch it turn.
I don't want to let the circumstances that life throws at me, no matter how big or how small, get me down and change my view. In fact, as these lyrics say, I won't let them. Because I have a God who is so much bigger than the circumstance, and who is light in the darkness. I love what Jesus says in John 16:33:
In this world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world.
You need to know this truth. Jesus came so that you could experience real grace, real love, and real life. Jesus is my only hope and He can be yours, too. Stop kidding yourself, you can't do it alone. You can spend a lifetime trying to do things in your own strength, or you can choose to turn to the one who already knows everything about you; the One who created you; the One who knows your flaws and loves you with an unending love; the One who believes in you more than anyone else ever could. I can't do it on my own, it just doesn't cut it. And you don't have to do it alone, either. I encourage you to open your heart to the greatest love you will ever know.